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| 05:53pm 22/12/2005 |
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Do you think it would be unfair to wrap up all your problems in a box and give them to somebody else for christmas?
I'm sick of always feeling unsure about myself.
I love who I am.
I hate what people make me think I am. |
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| 11:09am 16/12/2005 |
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it really bothers me that Avenged Sevenfold is number 1 one TR fucking L.
I remember I started listening to them almost two years ago when I started working at Hot Topic, and asking people if they like them...they in turn would always say... who?
Then I say then at Warped Tour and that sealed the deal. I became a hardcore fan.
now they are on TRL, I don't like that.
waken the fallen was the best album yet.
and half these bozos only listen to city of evil.
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| It's December 13th! |
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| 08:23am 13/12/2005 |
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HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY THOMAS MATTHEW DELONGE!!
so sometime today at macbethathletics.com they are putting up the podcast of an interview with Angels and Airwaves, and we will hear some of the new music. wicked excited
speaking of new music check out Mark and Travis doing their +44 thing and listen to the new song that they have out. http://www.plusfourtyfour.com/
I cried.
I'm a litte depressed that blink is dead.
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| taadaa!!! |
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| 11:37am 09/10/2005 |
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I think I totally under estimated the Beatles, and it took a four year old to help me. You just don't understand how wise some kids are until you really listen to them. |
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| maybe. |
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| 05:56pm 06/10/2005 |
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it's becomming more painfully apparent that "This One" will never go out to Jon Nishnick again. I guess that chapter of my life is over. I just don't know if I have writter's block right now because I can't seem to write the next. I just don't want to forgive you and I don't think I ever will. Maybe I wish I just never met you, because I still think you ruined the friendship that I had for so long. |
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| holy shit. not what I was expecting. yet better than what i was. |
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| 12:48am 04/10/2005 |
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"I love Mark and Travis to death. They were my best friends in the world, and I miss them tremendously. At the end, our priorities were mad different, and I haven't spoke to them since [the hiatus]," he continued. "So instead of talking, I just made this album and this film. There's a story line that runs throughout it, it's autobiographical, I felt like I lost my two best friends, I lost the band I created, and I did it all for my family. And so I decided to write the album and make the movie about my life. But rather than sit there and whine, I used analogies about love and war, because that's what this whole thing was like. Playing music in the wake of the Blink thing was like finding love in the middle of a war zone."
He also said this about his movie:
"Since [Pink Floyd's] The Wall, this has never been done. A third of the movie is CGI, a third of the movie is a documentary and a third of it is a love story. And it basically tells the story of the breakup of one of the biggest bands in the world and the creation of the world's greatest rock band,"
DeLonge said. "It's a documentary about the past year of my life. But the whole thing is done with metaphors and analogies of World War II. Because World War II was good versus evil, the grand sense of purpose, and seeing as though I started this new part of my life specifically for my family, I felt that it would be an appropriate reference point rather than using modern images." |
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| oh man! |
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| 01:15pm 02/10/2005 |
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what the fuck happened to my live journal. who did this?! hahahahaha I am sitting at the computer and I click to read and I'm like woah. Is Tom De FUCKING Longe my back round. I think I know who did this. I love you forever! ;) that was intense. I think it's time to change my password since everyone knows it!!! |
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| 01:43am 02/10/2005 |
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I don't believe in the apocalypse
I don't believe in the end of time
I don't believe in the solar eclipse
I don't believe in valentines
I don't believe I asked opinion
I don't believe I stretched the truth
I am not looking for a bargain
All I really believe in is you
I don't believe in everything I've read
I don't believe in promises
I don't believe in compromising
My own beliefs inside my head
I don't believe I asked opinion
I don't believe I stretched the truth
I am not looking for a bargain
All I really believe in is you
I don't believe I asked opinion
I don't believe I stretched the truth
I am not looking for a bargain
All I really believe in is you |
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| puddle jumpers. |
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| 08:16pm 26/09/2005 |
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We got shut off at Sam Digeo's....on a Monday. We are shaping up to be fantastic alcoholics. I love it...
I don't ever want to grow old. I want to be 21 forever.
We jumped in puddles in the rain.
I stole someones phone book.
then tried to mail it.
Kate and Leslie are the shit.
that is about it.
the end. |
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| woooo |
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| 05:28pm 24/09/2005 |
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mood: crazy music: Michael Jackson Smooth Criminal
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belt buckles give me a hard on. I bought a Famous one today. Yay. Plus I took my first guitar lesson..I'm gonna be a rock star. |
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| bumps. not. bugs. |
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| 10:31pm 20/09/2005 |
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mood:  bouncy
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if you like me. comment. say whatever you want. I just want something to come back to and read. right now. |
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| I love Leslie |
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| 08:25pm 19/09/2005 |
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Attention all Wal-Mart shoppers. Would Tim Deshorte please come to the customer service desk. That's Tim Deshorte please come to customer service. |
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| 12:11pm 11/09/2005 |
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mood: silly music: Rednex Cotton Eyed Joe
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My name is Vada Sultenfuss. Who am I? |
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| He pauses shaving and he doesn't seem to notice the smell. |
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| 06:04pm 07/09/2005 |
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I'm not really sure where I am going to go with this today. I just felt like updating. I just got home from babysitting. I kinda feel like I'm a little too old for this shit. I know I'm only 21 but I feel like I'm taking some 14 year olds salary, ya know. I just like having the extra money it's cool. Well right now I don't have the extra money because I have a spending problem, haha. So the asshole the broke into my car a couple weeks ago went to jail for six months. He had a record I guess. I have been summoned for a restitution hearing to get my cash back. That retard stole $124 out of my car. I suppose I am more of the retard for keeping that amount of money in my car but I am used to living in Carver, not this Plymouth shit. I mean when did America's Hometown become theft city. This isn't Compton, but whatever. I'm just glad he didn't get away with my cd's like I originally thought he had. That would have been about 250 bought cd's, because I don't burn them. I was really upset about that not so much the cash. My dad lent me money so I could go to warped tour that day. Only my luck it would happen then morning of the concert but whatever. I'm such a dork all I could think of was the fact like two days prior I had just finally got my hands on a real copy of the Mark, Tom and Travis show. The purple one with the faces. I bought it used from Newbury Comics for like 25 bucks which was so exciting. I bought a re-relase from like England online but it got scatched so Pathetic wouldn't play at all.
Anyways. I finally got my birthday present from my parents. A new acoustic guitar! I'm really excited to start taking lessons and learning how to play. I've always wanted to but I was so self concious that I would just suck that I just never did, but fuck it I want to learn and who cares if I suck. I'll like my playing haha. Maybe I'll become a rock star. You never know. Besides Kate, Leslie and I already have a band hah "DeBarkUs" Yeah were retarded. So I tried to stay up and watch Mark on the Adam Carolla show, but I fucking fell asleep. That guy isn't funny at all. I was out like a light. I mean really the guy seriously can't deliver a joke to save his life. Some one should toss him into a fire or something. I mean I was pretty high and it wasn't even funny. It was that bad. I never really liked that guy. I'm just sad I missed Mark. I would have stayed up if it was Tom though, that's for fucking sure. Whatever though.
I was babysitting today and the two little boys I watch, Andrew who is 4 and Owen who is 2, they are so cute, but don't call them that. Andrew like to be called tough hahah. They are almost annoyingly into Blink 182. I swear to god I watched the videos for Josie, All The Small Things, and What's My Age Again for three hours straight today over and over. Andrew knows all the words..it's so weird. Not in a bad way but you can tell he is going to be big into music when he is older, he already has his own guitar. We were watching Josie and he is like Look it's Tom! Then Mark get out of the car he is like look it's Mark! and the best part is when he said Look it's the old drummer and not Travis!!! He like knows the difference between them all and he is only four!! Even little Owen knows all the words, Paula, there mother called me at work the other day and was like Kim you have to here this and I hear Owen singing in the backround going I know that everything, know that everything, know that everything..everythings gonna be fine. I'm like that kid is amazing for 2! Kids are so smart and never cease to amaze me. I'm just glad I get to give them back at the end of the day haha
Anyways. I love my new house by the way. Minus the whole car situation. I love my room it's bigger and I get to have the computer in it. This house is just so cute, and you can tell my parents are soooo much happier now because my mom doesn't have to drive my father everywhere. He can just walk. I still feel bad for him though. I wish I could like buy him a new set of eyes so he could see better. It just sucks that he can't see to drive, or at all at night. I'm just waiting for the day where he won't be able to see at all. I don't ever want that to happen. Why does shit like that have to happen to good people. My dad is an amazing man, he has so many friends and people just like him. I don't know, I"m not really going to get into that, but yeah so everyone is happier now that we are in Plymouth. I'm so much closer to everything. It was so weird, I remember driving by and just seeing the foundation. Now here it is and I live in it.
One more thing, Does anyone want to buy my 1998 Ford Mustang, because I am paying $3.30 for a gallon of fucking gas. My car is using way too much money a week in gas. I can't handle it. I want to buy a hybid or something. Gas fucking sucks, almost as much as our retard president, Go Bush!...you loser.
Nextel is merging with Sprint. This means more towers, which means better service I hope. I pay way too much money for this phone and never have good service. My phone is really cute though. The i860, it's a picture phone but I can't say the quality of the pictures if that good. I still like the phone though. I like being able to take pictures and make it into a wall-paper. Like right now it's the raddest picture. It's Tom from the take off your pants and jacket insert where he is looking down and the hair is covering his face. I love that picture. haha I just want to be him.....(tim deshorte) I miss Steven Fernandes so much, shit like that he always used to say brighened up my day.
This is a very long entry.
I might almost be done though.
So I still hate girls. I can't seem to find a slightly punk girl at all. They are all like preppy or butch or wicked femme. What do I have to do to get a girl who would wear a pair of Adio's and a studded belt, maybe even a facial piercing or two. Nothing! They don't fucking exist!! I see sooo many hot girls that come into Hot Topic and they are all heterosexual with there little scenester boyfriends. :( sad face. Alright I think I'm done now. No one is going to read this. They are going to look at this and go. ugh no time for this. hahah :) |
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| 05:07pm 29/08/2005 |
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Tom Delonge is making a solo cd. I cannot fucking wait. I feel like everything is now right with the world. Oh yeah he is recording it in Dave Grohls ( or the foo fighters it's all the same) studio. How fucking cool is that! But don't worry Tom your still above Dave on my list hah :)
I don't want to work at Hot Topic tonight by the way. It's too fucking humid for this shit. |
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| 02:52pm 05/06/2005 |
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mood: happy music: Foo Fighters Best of You.
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Okay, so I haven't updated with more than one line in like forever. I had a really fun week. Monday I just worked all day and night because it was Memorial Day and I got time and a half which is pretty sweet. Tuesday I worked during the day then I went out to eat at the Cabin with Lindsay. We saw Meghan Raymond, that was weird. I really just can't go anywhere without knowing someone. I'm just that cool. lol
Then we ended up back at my house. We decided upon watching a movie. The Final Cut. It was okay it had a terrible ending though. We expected so much more of Robin Williams. He hasn't come out with a good movie in like forever. Maybe Death to Smoochie but that is about it. I drove her home after the movie. Then Leslie called me and we ended hanging out for a little bit. We went to Wendy's like the cool kids we were. I had a fantastic Frosty lol. Atleast they had then this time though. Last time we went I ordered one and they said that they didn't have any. I was like okay so I ordered the rest of my meal...then it came to order the cheese sauce and they didn't have that either! what the fuck! Oh well we had a super fun time. Lol then we drove all the way to the Plymouth Mcdonalds to get McFlurry's and they were like sorry no shakes or ice cream tonight. I was like UGHHHH!! So we ended up just getting icecream from Cumby's. Delish. but I digress.
Wednesday I babysat until 1 then I went to Raynham next to the Wendy's and cleaned my car and washed it. It sparkled. While I was up there I ran to Jiffy Lube and got an oil change,because I was like a million miles overdue. Then I came home and took a much needed nap. I was exhausted from the night before, and then proceeded to head over to Steph and Tammy's. We kinda just hung out for a while and ordered some chinese food. (You order chinese food? Yes. Then you come downstairs.lol) After we ate Tammy and I proceeded to drink ourselves into a stupor! We drank a bottle of vodka to our face and I tried Hypnotiq. It wasn't that good, but not quite as bad as the coconut rum (I feel like I'm drinking shampoo)
We called the police on the people next door because we needed something to do and they were playing there music waaaaaay too loud. lol It was the best when Steph went outside to talk to the cops and say that she had a baby upstairs trying to sleep, all while she was wearing a t-shirt that said "I like girls who like girls" It was so funny! So I spent the night there and came home the next morning to go to work. I was soooo tired! lol I only got like 4 hours of sleep that night.
I worked all day Thursday bustin blocks till 3. Then I met up with Kristen, Eric, Sara and Erin at thier house in Plymouth that they rent out from Sara's mom. (Diesel's cousin! lol) We went to Sam Diego's and met up with Amy and Andrea we all had dinner and decied that we all wanted to go to the Pin Cushion and get a piercing. lol so at 9 pm we mosey on over and get 9 of us pierced. I got my conch pierced. It made a funny popping sound lol. It was really fun though. So after that I headed home because I had to babysit early in the morning.
Friday I just babysat and worked at Blockbuster, after I got out Leslie and I, wanted to go to Burger King only to be sadened at the fact that they were closed. So we drove all the way to the Wendy's on exit 12 (can you handle the fact that we are not in Rayham right now?) It was an amazing adventure. So we ate and drove around and listened to the Network (is that billy joel? uhh billy joel?)(I didn't call for a shitty convosation) lol It was really fun. On Saturday I went and ran errand then had lunch at the 54 with Kristen lol. Eric waiting on us and we gave him a sweet tip. Then Kristen had to go to work as did I. So I worked at Hot Topic till ten then met up with Eric and Erin at the 99 to leave my car. We went to the East Bay Grille for a little bit where we met up with Andrea. Some drunk guy was talking to me about the Allman Brothers or something haha, and I guess some guy knew me from Carver High he was the tennis coach. I guess..... lol Amy came for like a minute tried to get a drink but she is only 20 so she had to leave haha. poor thing. Then we got bored there and went to Zach O'tooles or Sean..lol I can't remember hahaha. They were supposed to card us but didn't so I got in. We didn't even have to pay the cover charge because Erin had a little too much to drink and left the bartender like a $100 tip. So the guys was like there cool they can go in! haha Erin talked to the owner and were going to get VIP passes, pretty sweet. I saw so many people from high school. Jason Irving came up to me and gave me a hug. oh man that was intense. but he is super nice. Lol later in the night I talked to Jen Coulstring, Emily and Ashley Wadsworth and Jessi Clarke. So many hugs from so many girls hahah :) It was fun I drank stoly's watermelon martini's they kick your ass. The guys from Santoros were there. That was wierd. Oh and there was a really good band there. They totally played some foo fighters. Awsome. Then we all piled into the jeep that I had to drive because everyone else was a mess haha! Drove Andrea home and met up with Sara and Kristen at the Jetty. chilled there for a minute then went back to the house. It was a mad fun night. I can't remember half of the funny jokes but I know there were a ton! Snnnneeakk Preeeviiewww... Bruuunnoo Bruuunnnyyy :) Oh well. I don't want to go to work tonight. Tomorrow I'm going to Ernie's with Lindsay Lake. Should be mad fun. I'm going to the gym before though haha. I signed up at the planet fitness, it's only 10 bucks a month. So I"m getting my ass in gear haha. :) Wow I just typed so much. Alright well off to work. |
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| 09:45pm 01/06/2005 |
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Chinese and alcahol at Tammy and Stephs. Wish me luck!!! were gonna go shot for shot mother fuckers!!!! |
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